get the edge

the principle behind stochastic resonance
is adding noise to amplify and thus detect a weak signal

in a similar vein
taking (all sorts of) action
helps me in the process of fine-tuning
my alignment with my deepest impulses
in short
exposure (~noise) brings out my essence

there is no way around this, no shortcut:
I become a stronger version of myself via exposure
by taking action, day after day

in contrast with the quick-fix mentality
which promises gains without losses
this is a moebius loop or spiral:
where growth (or reception) is proportional to breaking down (rejection)

word up MJ:
“I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.



“through my actions
i create the world”

this is true both
at the biophysical
and the psychosocial level

in other words,
experience (or cognition) lived at the
and the interpersonal level
are dynamic loops that feed into themselves:
it’s all action and interaction based
born of movement

what you do/give is
what you get

the world is enacted
not perceived


to induce growth: intrude


roll with transient “losses”


put yourself on the line

be shameless, make no apologies

long term gains
come at the expense
of the transient ones

grow your tolerance for exposure
grow the balls to follow your gut
act on and-by the same token-tune in to your deepest impulses

intrude more
resist less

exposure heals

every time you let the superficial impulses of your lesser self
take the better of you
at the expense of your deeper impulses
in other words,
every time you choose the path of least resistance and
every time you hold back & resist & recoil from
the pull of your higher self
to take ation
and approach that girl, observe that habit, practice that skill, accept/decline that offer, etc.
you are wasting your time
in fact, you are a waste of energy
you are rehearsing death

value is earned

i ma get what i feel entitled to get
what i feel deserving of
there is no way around this
i cannot talk or psych myself into it

the only way out of feeling undeserving
of a hot girl, a lucrative opportunity, others’ undivided attention/time, love, etc.
and the only way to feel totally entitled
is by earning every inch of it by taking action

taking action and acting on my deeper impulses will inevitably hurt,
it all turns on my tolerance of exposure
on having the balls to go with my gut no matter what

there is no shortcut
i get as much as i give
give in the sense of yielding (beyond resistance)
what i deserve is in direct proportion to how much i give


images like Skywalker using telekinesis
or Bruce Wayne leaping out of the pit
are a bit confusing
for it’s not that believing in it you can do it
as in “fear brings failure, faith brings success”
believing in it you’ll just do it again
and again and again
until you fucken make it
in effect, this is what “faith brings success” actually means
success is a side-effect of relentless effort
the loop involves iteration: trust>thrust>truth


i guess i find watching the Hodgetwins eating all kindz of junkfood and giving all kindz of unlicensed professional advice so irresistible and matter of fact downright addictive cause they spatialize:
meaning that whenever i watch them i just fall deep inside a space
a peculiar space
brought forth by their frolicsome banter and bodily movements
with nothing but my wits hangin out:
though their stuff is sound and solid
i am engaged more at a visceral than an intellectual level
drawn at a tardy rhythm and a wide range of tonality that inflects their trademark register
deeper and deeper into the sugarwally grip of
recursive statements and recurring repetitions
yeah, the classic case of not-what-but-how-you-say-it

there is no rush in getting a point across
it’s all about just idling about,
spatializing and vacuuming themselves & us somewhere else