face & own your wishywashy vagueness
be transparent towards yourself first
consider everything you say & everything you do:
what’s the purpose behind it?
what’s the target, the projected outcome?
what is your behavior actually a vehicle for?
where does it get (or keep) you?
what needs does it fulfill?
map the cues that trigger your loops
and start tweaking them
shed your buffers
and progressively reach higher levels of clarity