Mindfulness scrambles mindless patterns

’’I’’ caught my self driving myself into a loop of self-pity again the other night and in that very instant I snapped right out of it—noticing the subtle pull of it yanked me out of the (emotional) pattern’s gravity well. To be more precise: what I actually noticed was my indulgence in wallowing and once I saw it, I started laughing with a tinge of embarrassment. Incidentally, I also realized that this particular emotional loop arises whenever I start idling (when for whatever reason I feel that, say, the cosmic wind vacates my day-to-day sails). I think idleness has a way of triggering an autoimmune-style attack against the self—turning its energy against itself—which is a double-edged thing: we either lose it or we use it.

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