Emotional wounds & repressed emotions
Even though you are awake form it, it’s still there in the body & the mind, and if you understand the dynamics of it, it can be very helpful. The dynamics of it are actually very simple. The dynamic of it is when we—at any age whether we’re adults or children—experience something that is so difficult for us that we cannot stay fully conscious to it. The moment we go (in any way) unconscious to what’s happening—which doesn’t mean you don’t feel it, it just means you can’t stay totally present—that emotion, that feeling gets locked into your physicality. Whatever you were not able to stay present for, it’s locked into your physicality. We call it trauma.
We don’t actually repress anything. We put a top on one emotion but—the energy—you can’t actually stop it. It just bleeds and arises in a more tolerable form. So, if we’ve been taught or we’ve assumed that we were not allowed to be angry, then maybe instead of being angry—since you can’t actually suppress anger—you can just transmute its energy into something you deem more appropriate, like possibly cataclysmic depression. It’s not OK for me to be very angry but it’s OK to be really depressed. It’s not that you think these things consciously but unconsciously we’ll always transform an emotion into something that is more acceptable to us.
Meing and Being
Coming into form shocks consciousness into identification with its own creation. All suffering is a matter of ignorance, an innocent misunderstanding: I am this form.
The thread that runs all along through it is that sense of dissatisfaction, the sense that goes: Something is not quite right. It’s that sense when you are very young and look around: it just seems like everybody knows who they are but you. You don’t have it together like everybody else seems to have it together. What you don’t realize is that none of them have it together either and they’re wondering the same thing you’re wondering but nobody is talking to each other about it. That little thread of dissatisfaction is actually the thread of the truth. That little memory at the back of our consciousness that’s saying: This isn’t you, you’re faking it, you are playing the part and you know it.