Just keep on expressing your frequency of being and let it be amplified by others along the way. Don’t concern yourself with convincing or saving and elevating anyone in particular. Only those pick up on the frequency you’re transmitt[er]ing who are ready for receiving it. You cannot prove the truth to anyone. The best you can do is to impart it without holding back.
In the past I’ve held the tacit belief that everyone should be like the person I intended to be: someone dedicated to the truth and oriented towards insights, someone emotionally motivated by the excitement of seeing [recurring] patterns and living a deadbeat lifestyle geared towards facilitating this seeing. I wanted to become the ’’transparent eyeball’’ and over the years—in keeping with this aim—everything I was doing turned out to be devoted to keeping a loose, en-lightened frequency of being in good repair—I ended up being a ’frequency holder’ of sorts, responsible for upkeeping, upregulating and bringing a subtler vibration of energy to bear on my dealings with others. Also, I’ve become obsessed with sharing the treasure of insights I’ve been graced to stumble upon by packaging them in neat wording. I believe in heart-felt wisdom that is borne of transparency and that results in efficacy of being. This is what drives me essentially. The fact that most of my life I’ve felt guilt-ridden about my half-hearted dealings with others as a consequence of this obsession is simply beyond absurd. At long last I realize that I need not take others’ tastes & preferences personally and that I am not responsible for justifying mine any more than others are responsible for justifying theirs. We differ. What makes me tick makes many diss me, and vice versa. We truly are a multifarious bunch in terms of style, rhythm, values, motivations, etc., and this is perfectly OK.
If you feel like the proverbial monkey wrench thrown into the machine after relocating to a new scene of living—injecting an interruption into the stilted interpersonal patterns of the place—it’s a good sign that you’re on the right track. Sometimes some of us are meant to bring a breath of fresh air for some of us who are meant to be the building blocks in the wall of a community.
What do you think hurts more when something’s off between you and an other: to vaguely feel it or to directly hear it (being told)? Exactly. That’s the reason why you have to be transparent when you feel like holding something back.
Don’t stay put—never stay put for too long—stand still instead, as always as possible.
They’ll want you to win if you want them to win but if you remain unwilling and afraid of winning they’ll resent you for misleading them into believing.
Transparency is the key that unlocks your contraction and absolves you from becoming the battered site of conflicting ego-vectors. The less you act (transparent) the more you feel compelled to retract and hide behind a camouflage or a fireworks of bombastic, barren words.