Word Up

You can’t get away with anything in life. All illusions end up in pain. Never mind what happens: respond rather than react. You see what you aim at. Your ego keeps the scope fuzzy. Aim at the truth. Stay with your deepest intent, bracket the noise. Allow what arises without indulging or personalizing it. Stay empty handed, congruent only to the truth of this moment. The only thing that you can give is your presence and the only thing you can get is presence in return. Stay loose, go with the given. Notice nuances. Don’t mind what happens. Roll with what gives. See where it goes.

Phase Shift

In the past you were open, geared towards the given: to what was coming into [this present moment of] your life in the form of people, relations, new things, new scenes, entranced—feeling orange—no matter what, adrift, drifting with abandon, engaging, and then, somewhere along the way, like each and every one of us, you fell for it, you started fixating on the missing: on what was falling and keeping away from you, you contracted melancholy, you became chronically blue and fear-full, prone to be anxiously grasping and gasping, drifting with worries. Sluggishness overtook, orange turned blue: You became a colder, more constipated you.

keep it real & keep it clean

every single day
every single set
claim 0,01% more ownership/partnership in the company called life

plant the seeds
tend the weeds
follow the leads

your investments may be minute
imperceptible for others and barely perceptible even for your self
but over time they’ll bring you to a place beyond your comprehension

your only task is to notice
and keep noticing

your spaciousness is your truest merit

abundance is the fruit that the processes you serve as a nexus for bear

Conor McGregor

Conor McGregor has become the champion in 13 seconds

“No power, just precision.
No speed, just timing.
That’s all it takes.”

it’s poise over matter

here’s two of my favourite quotes by him:


do you ever regret anything you say?

“I just let it flow and whatever it is I say if I regret it I regret it
it is what it is
I certainly wouldn’t regret something like speaking the truth
the truth is the truth
can’t regret speaking the truth
you can’t apologize for that”

which reminds me of trash-talk
that champions like McGregor or Michael Jordan used to deploy or rather ‘let flow’

the tip of an ice-berg: real trash-talk is a side-effect of mental dominance,
which comes from a solid foundation of skills and ownership of one’s strength

people with poise take the game to a new level where it becomes a clash of minds and the only thing there is to lose is the truth of the moment

/incidentally, McGregor was masterful in the way he used social media to whip up the hype (what, in effect, attracted me and many others to UFC)


“when you tell someone the truth they react to it”

in my translation this says: when your transparency confronts someone with the truth they either surrender or resist

once you step beyond self-deception that’s when you step into your power which will polarize people

but the real punch comes once you understand that the someone your transparency confronts is none other than you


amplify what you’d rather stifle

ease out of all self-imposed pressure

nothing is a big deal

there is nothing to lose

nothing is personal

if some people take their BS out on you it’s a fairly good indicator that you are on the right track


instead of focusing on self-image (maintenance)
focus on your wobbles in response

get intimate with the ripples your insecurities trigger

ride these ripples, relax through them

discover your self

have fun

so long as you add value,
so long as you play with open cards,
you can do whatever you want and however you please

think & feel win-win
relate in the mode of play
jettison all heavy emotional baggage

it’s not upon you to take care of the emotional needs of others
you are not responsible for meeting the needs of anyone but yourself

let go
melt into it
relish the flesh of life

the truth of the moment

I know I am grounded, present and free
when my reality tunnel becomes a funnel
where –like a gyrating kaleidoscope in constant motion– everything comes to me
where I am a still center, an opening
and even as I am moving it is the world that is approaching me

I am but a membrane
and the two options I have is to resist or resist less

poststructuralist self-help

the idea of alignment presupposes an essentialism of sorts

the binary thinking that lurks in my posts has more to it than a dichotomy, though

when I speak of authentic versus inauthentic impulses
(or what Robert Burton in The Anatomy of Melancholy discussing love distinguishes as honest and dishonest or natural passion vs disease/excess/defect)
is but the two ends of a spectrum
that like along a moebius strip
fold into each other

virtue and vice bleed into each other
they are not even two sides of a coin
they are one side of a loop
a dynamic unfolding that occasionally “runs away” (spiralling into a vicious cycle)
causing all sorts of dysfunction
(flare-ups, fevers, skin breakouts, aches & pains, diseases of the body & the mind, etc.)
but then over time self-corrects and moderates itself

homeostasis seeps through the cracks of our resistance
that inner voice, no matter how still and how small, is a powerful attractor

on second thought, though
I do tend to bias my logic toward the you discover yourself rather than create yourself side of the argument even though I resonate with the latter
as in there is no essence to which to align,
rather you create yourself on the go
from a core of emptiness

visceral intuition

I had a shitty shifty sleep tonight..
that heavy meal before bed probably had a lot to do with it

I was gluttonuous again
and I got as a result what I deserve
which, in effect, is what I need (to align better)

in my mind this is what “you get what you give” means

growing older is the gradual awakening to this fact,
how every decision I make either sharpens or dulls my edge
shifts the place where I am coming from or where I am at

but no matter what
stew of trotters is gonna be irresistible for me forever

at any rate
load your gun with the bullets compatible with it

that’s the principle of alignment right there

information (culled from books, magz & the interwebs)
provides potent ammunition
or sets of potentally optimal options
but it is your body
your actual impulses & appetites
that gets you select the best pick out of those options
(regarding physical & mental health or skill acquisition, for ex)

the trick is to distinguish between your
dark & light appetites
and following the trail of the latter while resisting the former

the way I binarize the light [authentic] and dark [inauthentic] appetites (that assists me in all this) is basically in terms of:
distraction & addiction vs expression & response(-able action)

as a case in point:
when you feel like eating out of idleness or anxiety
instead of dealing with those states of mind “head on” or more constructively
you are acting out your dark appetite
to distract (and possibly addict as well) yourself
but when you eat because and WHEN you get hungry (not before, not later), when “nature calls you”
that’s your light appetite

this is the idea behind distinguishing craving from desire,
needing sg/sy from wanting sg/sy

it takes lots of tuning
and you cultivate your feel for it
by acting on the whole spectrum of your appetites
just cross your fingers you won’t run out of ammo
before your trials outnumber your errors 😉