What hurts me is not that I’ve lost her but that I am losing the image I’ve cherished about her.
It’s painful to see this because it means that I am losing the image I’ve cherished about myself too.
Without the hope (the projected image) of getting her back there is noone to suffer for and there is noone to suffer.
I is afraid that without the compelsory struggle it’ll be left stranded, naked and empty handed. If there remains nothing to grasp, nothing to cling & hold on to and nothing to push away what is the I to do then with its clever hands? Beyond a lifetime of perplexed grappling all that remains is the unconditional act of touching, I guess.
whenever you seek to minimize output/outflow and (thus) maximize the input/inflow of energy & resources
you operate from the low frequencies of scarcity vibration
it is a natural bias and we are viscerally rigged to do so,
which does not warrant it at all, though
I got to train myself
on a daily basis
to snap out of this vibe
every time I notice its patterns over-determining my behavior
I got to train myself to snap -with more and more ease- into the higher frequencies of abundance vibration
where I focus on maximizing output/outflow of energy & resources
the first step, as always, is awareness,
with awareness comes choice
we have to be aware of the difference:
1 in abundance:
you are grounded in the truth of the moment
and flow with spontaneity,
you feel light and bright and complete
you are strong
you see everything and everybody as specific
it is a state of selfless selfishness
2 in scarcity:
you are grounded in a rigid self-image
you are leechy, clingy, clunky, needy,
you feel heavy, fraught with guilt and shame and fear
and fear-based attachments
you are weak
you regard few things and few people as special
(rather than everything and everybody as specific)
it is state of selfish selflessness
from abundance you act and PRO-CREATE
from scarcity you react and RE-CREATE
our cognition is distributed
in a sense, we are organs of a shared mind
and this is the source of our greatness, our grace and exaltation
as well as our depravity and perversity
as Jean-Paul Sartre put it: L’enfer, c’est les autres/Hell is other people
the human heart knows no limits,
our capacity for compassion is boundless
and our sense of envy goes deeper than we might think, watch:
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